seriously, don't let the bed bugs bite...

Well, here I am again, almost a month later.

and I'm 22 now. that's just weird. I feel old...

Sometimes I hear people make comments about people who have blogs and they say stuff like, "Do they really think that other people really want to know every single thing that happens in their life?! Like, seriously." Or, "Yeah, I'm glad you blogged about your goldfish dying...I was really wondering about that." Haha it sort of makes me laugh. But it's not like I'm one of those people who blogs every single day to tell all the people in the world that I cleaned by bathroom or that I went to class. Honestly, I don't know if anyone even reads what I write, but that's not why I do it anyways. Writing is an outlet for me, and I don't do it so I can tell everyone about my life...

however, the people who do use their blogs for that are FLIPPIN HILARIOUS! a friend and I were at work the other day and it was slow so we started researching bed bugs to get the facts. why, you say? oh, just since there's been a national outbreak of them. yeah, and not only that, but they've been reported in 3 of the 4 dorms at CN. sweet life. good thing I live in an apartment. really carson newman? really!?! I mean I guess technically it's not their fault, but still.

anyways, so we're researching bed bugs and what they look like and where you find them (and no, I don't mean the bed...like specifically!) and how to get rid of and prevent them. we run across this blog that this psycho girl in NY had written. it was literally like 13 pages long had it been printed out...complete with pictures and links to other websites confirming her facts. she used words like "traumatic" and "terrifying" and kept reassuring everyone that she wasn't exaggerating. if you say so honey. take a chill pill. regardless, it made me paranoid so I had to come back to my apartment and check my mattress and sheets and told all 3 of my roommates to do the same. Thankfully, we're all bed bug-free here. However, it does give a whole new meaning to the little phrase "Goodnight, don't let the bed bugs bite!" Like there's anything you could do to prevent it!!

On a more serious note....my life is literally being turned upside down at the moment. all the things that I thought I had all planned out for years are being rearranged and I'm starting to think there may be a different path for my life that I thought...and why should I be surprised that God's will is not mine? Why was I seriously under the impression that things were going to happen the way I always wanted them to? That's just not the way God works. He's a little more creative than me, and while he's writing my story I have to sit back, wait, and simply trust that I'll know what to do when I get to the crossroads. It's hard not to try to plan out my life for years to come, but I'm workin on it. The thought of going out on my own, finding an apartment, living by myself, going to grad school, becoming a therapist, and just going out in the real world and finding my own way (all things that used to scare me to death, especially if I had to do it alone)...it's all kind of growing on me. And I'm really excited to see what God has in store. Yes, it requires A TON of trust on my part, but the good thing is that my God is SO trustworthy! :)